June 22, 2020

“Up There” — Three Poems by Chad W. Lutz

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“Up There” — Three Poems by Chad W. Lutz
Up There 
 
 
this one goes out  
to anyone that’s  
ever made me feel  
I wasn’t enough 
 
or 
  
felt they were too good 
& drifted away 
 
I remember  
we fucked  
in the auditorium 
  
 
your idea  
 
 
& how carnal &  
playful you were 
 
wore a skirt 
and it hurt 
but I’ll admit 
I wasn’t ready 
 
here’s  
to the loves  
that didn’t last 
couldn’t last 
it’s all in the past now 
but I still daydream 
time to time 



 
Acan Glaske 

big border 
you know what that means 
government shutdowns 
partisan bickering 
sniveling banter 
back and forth we go 
 
the first settlers 
built walls around their encampments 
wanted to keep the threats out 
 
the Lakota 
the Apache 
the Comanche 
they lived on the open range 
in communion with nature 
 
they didn’t need Facebook 
to tell their stories 
 
they didn’t need Twitter 
to share their opinions 
 
smallpox and diphtheria did that 
unfair trades did that 
white colonialism 
Andrew Jackson 
 
trips to the White House 
meant nothing 
 
we shouldn’t be here 
but we are 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
they should have built a wall 



Blonde  

the bride 
is a former 
love of mine 
 
she’s tall 
fair-skinned 
& blonde 
 
blonde 
like the color 
of summer wheat 
 
blonde that falls 
down the center 
of her back 
 
like a rope 
I’ve never  
stopped climbing 
 
she wears glasses 
as big as her 
face that  
 
lift ever so  
slightly when  
she smiles 
 
she talks 
with her 
hands 
 
she likes 
wearing pants 
& quotes Barthes 
 
there are 
acrobats at 
this wedding 
 
three-course 
meals & a vow 
of love for all time 
 
I watch my 
father cry for 
the first time 
 
since his 
mother died 
on Christmas Eve 
 
it’s as  
if I was  
there  
 
as if  
I never 
left California 
 
but the dream 
is the same every 
time 
 
& when I wake  
it’s nothing 
but  
 
a dream 
a sweet dream 
a bad dream 
 
that 
keeps  
recurring 

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Chad W. Lutz is a non-binary writer born in Akron, Ohio, in 1986 and raised in the neighboring suburb of Stow. They graduated from Kent State University with their BA in English in 2008 and from Mills College in Oakland, California, with their MFA in Creative Writing in 2018. Their first book, For the Time Being, is currently available through J. New Books. You can read Chad’s previous work on The Fictional Café here.

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#colonialism#poetry#relationships#school#wedding

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